Wow, i haven't blogged on here in a very long time... These past few months have truly been a test for me.. I've seen deaths, divorces, and dreams deferred... etc.. but one thing stood out recently.. a friend of mine asked me do you forgive the ones that you thought wronged you? do you forgive people that you don't think deserve it? And so I immediately pondered on the question before answering... while pondering this verse and hadith came to my mind...
"Those who avoid major sins and acts of indecenecies, and when they are angry they forgive" (42:37) and,
The Prophet Muhammad (sws) said: "Those who are merciful have mercy shown to them by the All Merciful One"
finally I answered if you would have asked me this 4months ago I would have probably said no I don't forgive; however, today for the sake of my own soul I've learned to accept the will of Allah (swt) and forgive alhumdulilah.. This has increased my "pusuit of happyness." I now SMILE more, I Now Laugh more, and i've learned to enjoy my time here while I have it... if it's one thing I have learned these past few months is that you never no when your time will end..and this has allowed me to prepare for this a little better...
With recent events that occurred in my life... people come up to me and ask you're not angry? You still love them? I say No and Yes all for the sake of Allah (swt)... They continue to say man you're better than me... I say to them and "Which of The Blessings of Your Raab will you deny?" I continue by adding I asked for Allah (swt) for this.. I asked Him to remove the things that were distracting me from my deen, remove the things that I had put so much focus on.... so why be angry about Allah (swt) answering my dua's no matter how hard they may seem to deal with now... I know Allah is the Best of Planners....
After that they still say but.. but... but.. look at what has happened.. it's like the love never existed... you're not angry about how things are turning out or what's currently going on?? I say about a few months ago yes indeed.... but now I continue to make dua for them everyday... asking Allah to heal their Hearts, and allow them to return back to this perfect deen as soon as possible.. and remove the things that they are enaged in that keeps them from focusing on Al-Islam whole-heartedly as well... I say this is how I show that I care..what does being angry show or do for me....
Alhumdulilah it took me a long time to get to this point in my life..,. May Allah (swt) continue to heal my heart and allow it to be softened and full of light, increase my Iman daily, and icrease the characteristic of showing mercy so on the day of judgement I too will be shown Mercy... Ameen
